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Love can be endless, as long as there are two people who feel the same.

Yet you and I had it only for a slick moment in time. And yet I hold on to that moment as if nothing else in this world matters.



I wounder what it would be like to bite the Evil Queen's Apple and never awake from the slumber that Snow White did.

Maybe then I can hold you forever, safe in my dreams, and forever happy just to be who I am, and who you truly were, but then agagin I'm never happy with you.



You were never a beast to me, but I was always you're beauty. I wanted to save you from this lonely place. And what did you do, how did you finish me? Pushing me away.



Sometime I wounder how easy it is for you to survive, you are so disgusting now that I can see with my innocent eyes.

I tried to grasp what wasn't mine. You told me that everything I ever wanted you held in you're hands, and that you were willing to hand it over, as long as you could hold me in your cold hands.



How could I have known that you were to bring me to this place. A place were I was bound and blinded by chains. How could I cry if you all my tears were taken from me.



I been sick forever, each day I thought of you. I be came ill, and couldn't tell which parts of myself were the true colors I held on to for so long. Could you hear me breath?



You took me in, only to kill me, how could you?

Did you love me? Or just use me...

Have you loved someone so much that it hurts when they turn away?

I gave it all to something, that I knew wasn't good enough for me. Love is an illness that kills even the happyest person. Even when you brush you're hair back with your hands and say you can never fall in love, is a lie.

If I only could, make a deal with my Goddess than I wouldn't be crying. I would swap places with you, just so you can feel what lies deep in my heart. You never cared to stayed long enough to show you that I could be with you, that I wanted to stay here.



Doesn't hurt me...

I could lie to your face because I know no matter what I say doesn't matter anymore. I still cry.



You asked, what's wrong?

Why is it that everytime you look at me I feel something? I feel as if I need to tell you something, yet you never seem to hear me. As those tears roll down my face, you dare ask me what is going on. As if you didn't know. I told you what I felt, you ignored me.



You and your girl....

This is what I know, I can never have what I lost... Even though you left her you still don't see me. Emotions are hard to stop. I continously stand before you so that you can see me, and you toss my heart each day aside.



This is what im gonna do.....

I'm gonna get into you're head and make you listen, you better be sure you'll hear me. I'm not stoping my life just to make you love me. I know better now that you never believed in.



My fear.....

You can't continue on believeing that I'm gonna stand here anymore, I'm at the edge of Darkness, do you believe that I'm going to fear you anymore? Have you ever thought I can be strong... This isnt my fear anymore



It Doesn't hurt me anymore.

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ThomasWhitehead
00:48 Jan 27 2012

at the end of fear and darkness and anger and hate is a release that makes life new again, hang in there kitty :)

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All I have ever asked for was to be heard, to be listened to. And yet with all the cars driving by, and the gun shots being glocked. It makes it impossible to hear me speak, from the silence we can hear those who have not been heard.

So listen to me now, take a moment stop the world, do you hear what I can hear, I hear a child being taken from their mother, because their stepfather abused them. And mother cant say anything.

Listen again, take a breath, do you hear the dying breath of that women 3 doors down, you could have made a difference. She was dying from a heartbreak from losing her husband in a war.



The vet that lives next to me, the kind sir. Always greats and is never greated, give him a hand, make the last of his day thought of and memorable.

Do you hear the child in Africa which I stand by, I'm trying to give her a voice. She has an illness that is killing her. Have you ever stopped and tried to help her?

People just stop turn off all your lights and everything else in the world!

Maybe for once you'll see what I see



To be continued.

I went from this typical beautiful girl, to a monster from hell. I don't think anyone could understand me, I've lost my soul in the darkness of the night. Somehow I died and I was reborn, because someone felt the need to save me, and because of him I'll never look back at the emptyness in my life. He did everything in his power to force me to walk away.

The drugs the madness have controlled me to long, and the pain I saw it like no other pain I held in my hand.

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WhiteChameleon
14:42 Jan 29 2012

i sympathize with you, tho I am sure that is not what u want or care to hear :) :(

I say this because I feel as tho u r spelling out my life n thoughts, my fears n my doubts, my hopes n dreams of what could be, what should be be, but what will never come about the way it is meant to be....



Ever need too talk or just to speak knowing someone will listen.... I am here, just start talking anytime :)

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